i will survive

At first I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid look
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
oh as long as i know how to love
I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive (hey hey)

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to break me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
oh as long as i know how to love
I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive (oh)

Go on now go, walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to break me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
oh as long as i know how to love
I know I'll survive

I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
I will survive...!

India Vs South Africa - An introspection

Remember when you failed an examination. How many people remembered that - Your class, friends, relatives ? When you failed to make it to the IITs or IIMs, Who remembered ? How many times do you had the feeling of being the best in your class, school , university, state ? You failed to get a visa stamped this quarter, you missed a promotion this year, how did it feel when your dad told you in your early twenties that you are good for nothing and now your boss tells you the same.

You keep introspecting and go into a shell, when people most of whom don’t matter a dime in your life criticize you, back bite you, make fun of you. You are left sad and shattered and you cry when your own kin scoffs at you. You say I am feeling low today. It takes a lot from us to come out of these everyday situations and move on.

A lot, really?

Now here’s a man standing on the third man boundary in the last over of a world cup match. The bowler just has to bowl sensibly to win this game. What the man at the boundary sees is 4 rank bad bowls bowled without any sense of focus, planning or regret. India loses, yet again in those circumstances when he has done just everything right. He does not cry, does not show any emotion. Just keeps his head down and leaves the field. He has seen these failures for 22 years now. And not just his class, relatives, friends but the whole world has seen these failures. We are too immature to even imagine what goes on his that mind and heart. This is one reason, why I would never want to be Sachin. True, he has single handedly lifted the mood of the nation umpteen number of times. He has been an inspiration to rise above our mediocrity. Nobody who has ever lifted the willow even comes close to this man’s genius. His dedication and metal strength is unparalleled. This is specially for those, who would have made fun of him again last night when India lost. They are people who are mediocre in their own lives. Who just scoff at others to create cheap fun, who have lived in a small hole throughout their lives and thought they have seen the oceans. Think about the man himself. He is 37 years of age. He has been playing almost non stop for 22 years. The way he was running and diving around the field last night would have put 22 year olds to shame. The way he played the best opening quickies in the world was breathtaking. He just keeps getting better which is by the way humanly impossible. Its not for nothing that people call him GOD. But still I don’t want to be in those shoes. We struggle in keeping our monotonous lives straight, lives which affect a limited number of people. Imagine what would be the magnitude of the inner struggle for him, pain both mental and physical, tears that have frozen with time, knees and ankles and every other joint in the body that is either bandaged or needs to be attended to every night, eyes that don’t sleep before a big game, bats that have scored 99 international tons and still see expectations from a billion people. And he just converts those expectations into reality. We watch in awe, feel privileged.

Well I think its time that his team realizes that enough is enough. They have an obligation, not towards their country alone but towards Sachin. They need to win this one for him. Stay assured that he himself will still deliver and leave no stone unturned to make sure India wins this cup. This is not just a game, and he is not just a sportsman. Its much more than this.

Too much of emotions inside but falling short of Words here !!






- Reproduced from Harsh Bhogle's note.

Only if You have Time..!!

I just came across this tag and thought of doing it on my own..as i have nothing better to do...so Lets see how does it go..?

The work that you are about to witness is all out of shear boredom. Read it at your own risk.

10 How's:

1. How did you get one of your scars? Was playing on a construction site with iron rods and met an accident.

2.  How did you celebrate your last birthday? Nothing great this year...but shared my joys with Bhaiya-bhabhi as it happens to be their wedding anniversary.

3.  How are you feeling at this moment? Tired. 

4.  How did your night go last night? Sound sleep...Replaced my old bed with a new one yesterday.

5. How did you do in high school? Mediocre but arrogant.

6. How did you get the shirt you’re wearing? i got this as my b'day gift last year.

7. How often do you see your best friend(s)? Hardly meet school friends, meet Bachelor friends once or twice in a month and meet PG friends regularly.

8. How much money did you spend last month? Not more than 12K.

9. How old do you want to be when you get married? Age no bar, financial status is..!!

10. How old will you be at your next birthday? - 26

Nine what’s:

1. Your mothers name? Mamma

2. What did you do last weekend? Met my School, Bachelor's and PG friends...for the 1st time...on same day.

3. What is the most important part of your life? So many things.... 

4. What would you rather be doing? Sleeping or playing guitar or travelling

5. What did you last cry over? Loneliness. Life in a metro sucks big time esp on festivals like Diwali..!!

6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset? Sit at peace.

7. What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other? Nothing actually, its always on confrontation.

8. What are you worried about? New Job.

9. What did you have for breakfast? Bread pakoda and juice.

Eight you’s:

1. Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend? Yes

2. Have you ever had your heartbroken? Yes

3. Have you ever been out of the country? Yes (Nepal) :P

4. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb? Yes

5. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend? Yes

6. Have you ever had sex on the beach? Yes..its an awesome cocktail.

7. Have you ever dated someone younger than you? Yes.

8. Have you ever read an entire book in one day? Yes.

Seven who’s:

1. Who was the last person you saw? My Brother

2. Who was the last person you texted? A friend.

3. Who was the last person you hung out with? My PG friends..

4. Who was the last person to call you? Dad.

5. Who did you last hug? Bhabhi.

6. Who is the last person who texted you? The same friend.

7. Who was the last person you said “I love you” to? I forgot...don keep the count..so many people...

Six where’s:

1. Where does your best friend(s) live? - my heart and mind

2. Where did you last go? Park nearby

3. Where did you last hang out? Rodeo's.

4. Where do you go to school? MFP

5. Where is your favorite place to be? I am sitting there right now.

6. Where did you sleep last night? Obviously on my new bed.

Five do’s:

1. Do you think anyone likes you? Everybody likes me..

2. Do you ever wish you were someone else? No

3. Do you know the muffin man? No.

4. Does the future scare you? Not really

5. Do your parents know about your blog? No

Four why’s:

1. Why are you best friends with your best friend? I am like that.. Tit for Tat.

2. Why did you get into Blogging? Wanted to share my beliefs and thoughts...speak my mind without thinking twice..!!

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have? Because it rhymes smoothly.

4. Why are you doing this survey? I have nothing else to do.

Three if’s:

1. If you could have one super power what would it be? To become a super power.

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you? I would like to change a few things... like Monalisa smile, leaning tower of pisa etc

3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring 1 thing, what would you bring? a camel

Two would-you-ever’s:

1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you? I dont have one..

2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love? Yes

One last question:

1. Are you happy with your life right now? Yes

No Income Tax Returns this year..!!

The illegal allotment of licenses for the 2 G spectrum to telecom biggies in India has cost us a massive Rs 1,76,000 crores. The Chief Auditor General says that the cost of a pan-India licence could be anywhere between Rs 7,442 crore and Rs 47,918 crore. However, Raja issued a pan-India licence for just Rs 1,658 crore. And Raja jee still says that what he did was right.
Manmohan G....jagooo warna yeh 2 G (Raja G & Kalmadi G) aapko le dubenge..!!

In an another scam, it is speculated that Kalmadi & Co have swept almost 70 Billion rupees in CWG... gosh...!! They have made money in Queen's baton relay and several other illegal contracts which were awarded to their kiths n kins. CAG is yet to access the right scale of scam.

Yet another scam, Mumbai's posh Colaba area land (about 3800 square meters) was given to a private housing societiy. This is a defence' land and can not be given to civilians for any purpose but army took no action in this regard because several army officials, including former army Chief Deepak Kapoor himself, had flats in this society. This 27-storey building has been built in Mumbai's Colaba Navy Nagar area. Thou the value of this scam is meagre in front of the above two i.e Rs 500 crores (i feel ashamed to say this amount as a meagre.) but the top brass of the Maharashtra govt and Defence personals are involved.

In this season of scams, Yeddyurappa's land deals could dwarf the ones like Adarsh Cooperative Housing Society scam. Yeddyurappa's eldest son is the biggest beneficiary in the land-for-family-scheme in Karnataka. This scam is worth Rs 650 Crores.

The hard earned money of the citizen's of the country is going somewhere else. I cant donate my money to these scamsters So i have decided not to file my IT returns this year.

Thanks a ton Chanz for tagging me yet again.

I am supposed to mention 9 things that I have worn the most. Wooaahh..!! Gradually, i have started enjoying this tagging game and specially this one would be his is quite an interesting as i am supposed to click pics and put them for display. So, here is my list of 9 things straight from my wardrobe.

(Apologies for the poor picture quality)

1.) My Black shorts. I put them almost every odd day and i have traveled a lot and boarded lots of flights n Trains wearing this short. They are one of the most comfortable shorts i have on date.

2.) This Nike shot caller t-shirt was gifted to me by ma brother and trust me i have wore this almost twice a week for 2 yrs. I have worn this one every second day this summer. I love the comfort and I love the fabric. It is just perfect for a summer day.

3.) These track pants are the most frequently used cloth by me during winters. I just love blue and i use them at home, outside everywhere.

4.) My most treasured pair of jeans. I have similar 3 pairs all from Pepe London fit, one black and two basic blue. I just love wearing this fit.

5.) And now please don't be surprised at this one. My Jokey undergarments. I have 7 pieces each of vest (all white) and underwear (style 1005) of same color (all green). I dont why...but i have been repeatedly buying the same color and design for past 7 Years now. And i never feel like trying the other designs and colors. ;)

6.) This is my purchase of last Winters. I just love wearing them with my rugged jeans and a Tee. nothing like United Colors of Benetton when u want to look dashing and carry yourself in style. This keeps me warm all the winter.

7.) Nothing like this black jacket with a zip high neck. The fit and the comfort is just unbeatable. It goes well with my sporty style. My 1st choice with my blue denim when ever i am out during winters.

8.) My brown leather belt from Van Huesen. I use it almost daily whenever i step out of house. They go well with my formals as well as my rugged jeans.

9.) Last but not the least, some basics, which I use almost everyday. The after shave gel and the sunscreen lotion for men from Kaya for men, Garnier hair gel for the wet look and the Gillette series roll on to keep the body odor away and stay cool for the day.

I reached the nine quite soon. I am yet left with 5-7 items which i consider worth possession. Nothing like Converse All Stars or Nike joggers when it comes to casual/sport shoes or my Red Tape Blucher. My brown leather wallet which helps me to buy everything except happiness, i.e. various credit/debit cards and cash. and the list goes on and on..!

Time for tagging people..

I tag the following:

Nuts

Puja vipin Singh

Chandrika

and Saru raist

I must say, after doing this tag...my love for my wardrobe has increased even more...esp my daily wear clothes. I hope you guys too enjoy doing this tag.

"Guilty" or "Innocent"

Hey chanz, thanx yet again for tagging. I just enjoy doing this tag more than blogging.

And this one is very interesting.

RULE 1- You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2- You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

RULE 3- Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.


Here i go..!!
Asked someone to marry you? Guilty

Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent

Danced on a table in a bar? Guilty

Ever told a lie? Guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty

Kissed a picture? Guilty

Slept in until 5 PM? Guilty

Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty

Held a snake? Gulity

Been suspended from school? Innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent

Stolen from a store? Innocent

Been fired from a job? Innocent

Done something you regret? Guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent

Kissed in the rain? Guilty

Sat on a roof top? Guilty

Kissed someone you shouldn't? Guilty

Sang in the shower? Guilty

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Guilty

Shaved your head? Guilty

Had a boxing membership? Innocent

Made a boy/Girl friend cry? Guilty

Been in a band? Guilty

Shot a gun? Guilty

Donated Blood? Guilty

Eaten alligator meat? Innocent

Eaten cheesecake? Guilty

Still love someone you shouldn’t? Guilty

Have/had a tattoo? Innocent (now)

Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty

Been too honest? Guilty

Ruined a surprise? Guilty

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterward? Guilty

Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)?Guilty

Joined a pageant? Guilty

Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Guilty

Had communication with your ex? Guilty

Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Too many Guilts lol...

Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Guilty


oh...goshhhhhhh. too many guilts. m sorry folks. But i enjoyed doins this tag, as it was objective and crisp.


Tagging time now. let me take the honor of tagging my beloved bloggers :

1. Nipun Mittal.
2. Chandrika.
3. Surabhi Raist.